Mixed Emotion

She longs to walk through empty rooms and feel
memories crowd around to remind her
of the warmth she once felt within these walls.
No longer hers, it was a home for years.
Laughter bounced around the room, just as tears
washed the floor when anger spilled across it.

Mixed emotions wage a war inside now;
her children grew up here; left here alone
she is confused by the desire to
stay, buried within once upon a time,
and the need to leave behind the painful;
knowing those aches are never really gone.

Closing the door, she looks back through windows,
seeing the future in her past –smiling.